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Afterthought 1423—Raw

Posted in tercet by maggie on 2016/11/23

Love quit us. Done. Cold through.
I reach for you.
You're with another someone new.

Given up on. Abandoned. Left behind.
I hurt for you.
You're with another someone your kind.

What sacrifices get made for security!
I crash for you.
You're with another someone for free.

Afterthought 913—Sonnet -6

Posted in nothing special, sonnet, sonnet cycle by maggie on 2016/02/17
 
Conceived in doubt, whom he loves he must lose
his future to.  Another will come by
to pick it up for him.  He needn't try
convincing her to stay.  Another muse
will speak to his forgotten dream.  Excuse
him his regard for her.  Another sky
will open up on him.  Distrusting why,
whose child he fathers he cannot be whose.
 
My mother's nipple nursed me on his word
until my own kicked in. "Before he left
me stuck with you," she told me once, "He'd hoped
to live to see you cured.  I might've coped
with losing him, but not with your soul's theft.
Go after him. You'll know no other lord."
 
 

Afterthought 910—Sonnet -5

Posted in nothing special, sonnet, sonnet cycle by maggie on 2016/02/17
 
His mourning by the night's black prison walled
with complications, over which scars traced
the days of years authorities erased
from ghosts of former prisoners, forestalled
just long enough to crack into, he crawled
on hands and knees through poisoned blood encased
in scab.  His goddess crept inside him, chaste
as moonlight, cold as beds where they fell sprawled.

No mention of him made it to the news,
no recognition of the wave of grief,
depression, pain and shame in which he drowned
his solitude. His child was never found.
Such miracles are killed by unbelief
conceived in doubt. Whom he loves, he must lose.
 
 

Afterthought 907—Sonnet -3

Posted in nothing special, sonnet, sonnet cycle by maggie on 2016/02/15
 
"So as," I said, "I don't expect to stay
the night, don't make room for me in your bed."
"Fine since," she stood to see me out, "you're dead
to me. I would have trashed you anyway."
 
"I know," I told myself, "I heard you say
as much. Keep any substitute instead. 
Give him all these words we never said."
"Laissez-moi tranquille s'il vous plaît."
 
Hard moonlight in my eyes, endless outside:
the distances press in on me, no hurt
embracing me, no poison to my blood
except drowned deep in contagion's flood,
abandoned like a common clump of dirt—
the hell of every death she claims she died.  


 

Afterthought 167—Asked and Answered

Posted in nothing special by maggie on 2015/05/13

The question didn't want to be made
nor was it meant so ought have died
in the fickle throat too funk to take
it back, too insincere to fake.
    Good question. No follow through.

The response didn't need to convince
anyone who'd believe it had a chance
to get real.  It's not the thing to say
to other than was thrown away.
    Nice response.  Still won't do. 
 

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Protected: Overdraft 36—Rejected Love

Posted in crown of sonnets, curtal sonnet by maggie on 2013/02/15

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– alone

Posted in nothing special by maggie on 2009/07/08
- alone

my eyes are now near swollen shut
i should keep them so
- alone

more exposed than they had me at the clinic
more exposed than when i was informed
- alone

walls and windows and faces accelerating away
until i realize it's me rushing from it all
- alone

who and how and when and what i will do
and how it will be done and who will go with me
- alone

i should try to eat, i need my strength
nothing wants to even make the attempt
- alone

not the biggest regret of this most regrettable day but
i do regret having told
- alone

in the deepest pit of my empty stomach
in the hole caved in where my heart used to be
- alone

fears and conflicts and desires and choices and considerations
and the one live shadow swallowing it all whole
- alone

the one day i needed it most
ached to know a quiet touch inside the torrent
- alone

smack smack smack smack smack smack smack smack smack
smack smack smack smack smack smack smack smack smack
- alone

it is what i have always been
why should this get to be any different?
- alone

i have no floor plan
i have no company
- alone

i have to stop
i have to do this myself
- alone

calm again
i know what has to happen
- alone

silent
invisible
- alone

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