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my eyes are now near swollen shut
i should keep them so
- alone
more exposed than they had me at the clinic
more exposed than when i was informed
- alone
walls and windows and faces accelerating away
until i realize it's me rushing from it all
- alone
who and how and when and what i will do
and how it will be done and who will go with me
- alone
i should try to eat, i need my strength
nothing wants to even make the attempt
- alone
not the biggest regret of this most regrettable day but
i do regret having told
- alone
in the deepest pit of my empty stomach
in the hole caved in where my heart used to be
- alone
fears and conflicts and desires and choices and considerations
and the one live shadow swallowing it all whole
- alone
the one day i needed it most
ached to know a quiet touch inside the torrent
- alone
smack smack smack smack smack smack smack smack smack
smack smack smack smack smack smack smack smack smack
- alone
it is what i have always been
why should this get to be any different?
- alone
i have no floor plan
i have no company
- alone
i have to stop
i have to do this myself
- alone
calm again
i know what has to happen
- alone
silent
invisible
- alone
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pearls 
Alone is all there is..
I felt its truth
See you on the other side
Some day
nobody . told . me . it . would . hurt . like . this
Another curse aimed at me? It’ll work
no better than the least you judged of me,
my friends, my family and my poetry.
Besides, why waste your skill on the worthless jerk
you think me to have been? How can it irk
you so, that I still treasure the perigee
that brought me near you, while futility
is what I mean to you, mere waste to burke?
I’ll never curse you back. My love won’t quit
no matter how you’d do it all again
and still do, finding things in me to fault.
Your friend remains immune to your assault
against her, notwithstanding bile and bane
your would-be-master tries to make of it.