phantom pantoums

i've seen the end, it's come time to resign — every breath past here has its own word (i knew them all, i loved them all like mine and yours) - i've left you every sound i've heard. every breath past here has its own word, while each word speaks an endless silence (his and yours) - i've left you every sound i've heard to dedicate what can't be to what is. while each word speaks an endless silence, his are promises of worlds that never were. to dedicate what can't be to what is, you sacrificed to him and i to her. are promises of worlds that never were enough to recreate what we've destroyed? you sacrificed to him and i to her - we give the most to what's our greatest void. enough! to recreate what we've destroyed - that's why we sing the song, it's what we give the most to. what's our greatest void? the word we left unsaid, the door left shut. that's why we sing. the song - it's what each fragile moment aches to be there for: the word we left unsaid, the door left shut, our secret lives, the dreams that spoke of more. each fragile moment aches to be there, for i've seen the end. it's come time to resign our secret lives, the dreams that spoke of more. (i knew them all, i loved them all like mine) each fragile moment aches to be there for our freedom, our control, that light ahead, our secret lives, the dreams that spoke of more (though nothing more about us need be said). our freedom, our control, that light ahead - how is it home has always felt so near? though nothing more about us need be said, my friends will come around to itch your ear. how is it home has always felt so near? i've seen the end. it's come time to resign. (my friends will come around to itch your ear. i knew them all, i loved them all like mine) how is it home has always felt so near? there was a time i used to give a damn. my friends will come around to itch your ear - don't tell them where or what or how i am. there was a time i used to give a damn for those who feigned the same for what they gave. don't tell them where or what or how i am - there's nothing in my soul worth shit to save. for those who feigned the same for what they gave - i knew them all, i loved them all like mine. there's nothing in my soul worth shit to save. i've seen the end. it's come time to resign. for those who feigned the same, for what they gave, i can't make up the difference nor the change. there's nothing in my soul worth shit to save, i've nothing in my head one might call strange.

pearls 

if i must sleep

how much more do we make this legend go? i have to sleep some now against my will i've worked it down to the last few things i know it hurts me finding you and him there still i have to sleep some now against my will i want you haunting all my dreaming but it hurts me finding you and him there still why must i watch? why can't my eyes stay shut? i want you haunting all my dreaming but i know he'll run there too, he always does why must i watch? why can't my eyes stay shut? if dreams come true, i want them how it was i know he'll run there too, he always does at least if i must sleep, set no alarms if dreams come true, i want them how it was let sleep last until i wake up in your arms at least if i must sleep, set no alarms i've worked it down to the last few things i know let sleep last until i wake up in your arms how much more do we make this legend go?

pearls